So I know I haven't blogged in forever! I'm not sure why...but today I am feeling lots of emotions, so I decided to blog about it :)
Today my mind has been thinking of my cousin Jeri Lynn. I miss her so much today...more than I have felt in a really long time. It's so weird how life will hit you in a moment and brings all these feelings and memories back to you! Jeri died 5 years and 7 months ago. In a car accident. Which I cannot believe how long it's been!! She was only 23 yrs old. She was 2 yrs older than me and we had so much fun growing up together. Spending the night, playing at the family cabin, driving around the property of the cabin and listening to music, talking about life and our futures. I miss her so much!! Life was at her fingertips...and she was so beautifully living some of her life long dreams, even at 23 yrs old. I am so thankful to God for that! She was a women everyone loved and loved to be around. Bringing joy and laughter where ever she went. She would have been 29yrs old Feb. 21st and it's just crazy how time flies!! Another wonderful small mirecal is that a few months (or less) before she passed away she sent our grandma a letter telling her of her faith and love for God!! So it brought great comfort to our family knowing she was with her Father in heaven now!! Perfect in every way.
I had never lost anyone close to me before, except for great grandparents how lived full lives, was so amazed by how our Faith in God really does sustain us in every way! The peace that is in your heart knowing where she is and that I will see her and hear her laugh again someday! That makes me very happy. She passed away 6 wks before Jeremy and mines wedding. Actually the day we were sending out our invites was the day she passed...July 31st 2003. We were getting married on September 13th 2003. But God brought us through that horrible moment in time and our wedding was still an amazing day full of love and joy and we honored her with a purple rose...her flower. It was really important to me to do that for my sake and my aunt Marsha and Uncle Mike's. I gave them the flower at the end of our ceremony, to let them know we think of her often and loved her so much!!
Last night Jeremy and i were talk ing about how it's so funny that we are now living the dreams we talked about so much while dating! I mean we are so living it...I am so grateful to God for that!! He has blessed my life so very much. So I was just thinking of all the things in the past 5 yrs that Jeri has missed...well that we have missed sharing with her :) Avery Lynn is named in honor of her. I think of the last time I saw her...mothers day weekend. Showing her my engagment ring and talking about the wedding, doing MaryKay makeup with all the ladies. I know God did great things through this. Bringing some family back to God, bringing our family a bit closer. Learning to say I love you more, hugging tighter...living life as God intened it! I know Jeri is in the Glory of the most High King!! and seeing my Grandpa Aub too :) (who I never met, my dads dad). God continue to sustain her family! Show them your love and thoughts for them! Thank you for this beautiful woman...for her life, her love, her smile and her laughter!! Jeri I miss you and I love you so much!!
All my love,
Layne
