Survive Mode

Well this is my 1st Blog. I have wanted to do this for awhile but just haven't done it yet!! Today is probably not the best day to start either. I am on survive mode!!! There has been sickness in my home for 3 weeks now and I AM OVER IT!!! Strep, head colds, fevers, snotty noses, sore throats, coughs, whining, crying.....*sigh*....I am on survive mode!! My house has been a disaster for weeks, I have not been out of the house but a few minimal times. I feel like I am on lock down and it's getting to me. I have a bit of a break down for sure today (Poor Jeremy)! We are going to have to move Gabe's eye surgery for a second time now. Man I am ready for a healthy family and spring. And I was really enjoying winter for some reason...but that moment is gone now!! LOL! I want to go on vacation...but that is not happening either! I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin!!! Motherhood is the HARDEST job in the whole world and if anyone ever wants to challenge me on that one...well I feel bad for them! It is never ending! NEVER! I mean of course I love my babies, but Mamma needs a spa day or something!! It's ok to take time for ourselves. We need it. To refresh and get a new perspective. Of coures being refreshed by my Savior is even better...but of course I let that go till I am desperate sometimes!!! The One I should run too, I at times run from...well ignore is a better word. But then I think, He knows already and all I do is pray!! But I am really trying to learn to dig deep into my Father, but it's hard for me? Why you ask? I don't know? that is what I am trying to figure out :) Well I guess that is it for my 1st blog. Or should I say my bla bla bla babble babble babble today! I hope I am more entertain in the future!! I know there are better days to come and I pray it starts with tomorrow!! No more survive mode...but Thrive Mode!!