Look Like me?

 So since January I have really wanted to blog my journey of my body transformation, it only took me 8 1/2 months to get started!! sheesh!! I feel as thought God has taught me SO much about health, my heart, my body and my drive!! It's been quite the journey so far and I have to say I feel very certain that I WILL make my goal!! That in it's self is a huge battle won and I'm very excited for my future fit self :)
So be prepared this will be a raw and real blog all of the time with some tough thoughts, challenging thoughts and encouraging ones for all! 

So Last night I was going to try and hoola hoop.  I must say I'm quite amazing at it...well on our wii, hehe! But we just got one on sunday so I decided to give it a whorl.  Well I no less had that thing on my hips and My sweet Avery (7yrs old) said " I don't think you can do it with your fat....." and she stopped mid "fat" part.  Then she looked at me nervously and said "I'm sorry I didn't mean to say that!!". See we have had this conversation a few times in the past few years so she knows it hurts me.  Yes it does hurt still.  She was so upset when she saw my face.  She's our sweet hearted girl and gets very upset when she knows she hurts you.  She ran off crying saying "I'm sorry i didn't mean it, I'm sorry!!" In a very 7yr old girl way ;)  I told her it was ok and I forgave her, the whole bit so she knows I'm ok.  At bedtime she came to give me a kiss good night and she said again "mom I'm sorry I said that to you, I didn't mean it."  I again assured her it was ok and that I understood.  Then she asked a question that I thought was interesting "mom when I'm big will I look like you?"  wow! My 1st thought was I hope not! But then I said "Well you will have all my good qualities :) But I hope you always stay active and eat healthy.  That's why we always talk about it. I don't want you to struggle like I did." We then talked about why it's so important to me to workout and make healthy food and how I want to be a good example to her (and my other sweeties).  We talked about our beauty and what God looks at.  

   He looks at our heart and character.  He sees us as beautiful and whole because of Jesus! How amazing is that!!   I want my Avery, Gabe and Zoe to know they will look like me (and daddy), they will be beautiful and full of life! They will have their dads deep warm brown eyes, his tan skin and my blond hair (they are quite stunning if you ask me! They look like California beach babes!!).  But most of all they will be beautiful because of their heart, their dreams, their character and all that God created them to be!!